Personality Disorders

» Steve_B98 - Narc

I'm making an appointment for therapy and am worrying a lot about being narcissistic.
I've been thinking there was something wrong with me for a long time and narcissism seems to fit me the most.
When people talk to me I have a very hard time trying to figure out what to say next. My mind almost goes blank and I find I argue with myself over what to say. Sometimes I just blurt out the first thing that comes to mind and then wonder why I said it.
I feel like I have no real connection to whoever I really am and instead try to copy people who I admire or who other people admire. It sometimes goes as far as reacting the same way they do to the same things and copying what they say and how they treat people.
When I read these articles that described my personality so well I had this terrible feeling in my stomach, kinda a mix between revulsion and shock.
My dad is narcissistic, my mom is alcoholic and my brother is narcissistic so I feel almost assured that I am narcissistic yet I still cling to some hopeful doubt that I'm not.
I'm really asking, do I seem narcissistic? If theres anything I didn't clarify just ask and ill fill it in.

-- posted by Steve_B98